"Robert, there's a creature inside of you that I'm not good enough to bring out, not strong enough to reach. I sometimes have the feeling you've been here a long time, more than one lifetime, and that you've dwelt in places none of the rest of us has even dreamed about. You frighten me, even though you're gentle with me. If I didn't fight to control myself with you, I feel like I might lose my centre and never get back."
荒廢了近四年的部落格，復活的契機竟然是如此。 買了一杯你喜歡的拿鐵，用咖啡因驅走深夜僅在床邊徘徊的睡意，同時嘗試進入你的世界。 多麼陌生，的世界。 腦海裡不斷響起「我擁有的都是僥倖，失去的都是人生」，可是偏偏是這個時候發現自己沒帶耳機。連要放任自己溺斃在刻骨的文字音樂當中的機會都沒有。 雖然明明知道不會長久，雖然明明知道這只是一段出國留學的美麗回憶，雖然明明知道即使我們都單身但你也未必會選擇我，但對於夭折的陪伴，始終覺得惋惜，再惋惜。 必須承認，還是希望這份情誼有輪迴轉世的機會，以另一種面貌再次降臨我們的人生，但緣分可遇不可求。 祝你安好，親愛的過客。
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